Shedding the Mask
July 3 2016
This photo shoot illustrates a journey where I was shedding one of my most used masks – the sweet, pleasing and frozen girl. For me this wasn’t a very authentic mask. Yes, I am nice person too, but the issue with this mask is that I would often use it to hide my true desires, feelings, and wants. I would cover my essence and use the mask to manipulate and neglect my instincts, sexuality, anger, and power. Ultimately myself.
The more I hid behind this mask, the more I lost myself. I lost connection to the ground under my feet. I lost touch with my truth. I lost touch with my hearts desires and values.
As I worked my way through the most intense pain and expanded my awareness around it, I felt inspired to create a series of photos where I played with this mask. The result was a healing photos shoot. I actively put the mask on and expressed it’s purpose. It’s purpose was to protect my true self, which hid the shame I felt around being me.
It was a very empowering and beautiful experience doing the photo shoot. Throughout the shoot, I am consciously putting on the mask and shedding it, then expressing my essence, all while being captured by the lens.
I went through many deep feelings. Such as when I was tuning into and connecting with the mask, when I was going through the process of realising that I was carrying the mask, and then when I was starting to let go of the mask. I experienced the sadness, the insecurities of the mask, stiffness, love, laughter, freedom and silliness. Old memories as well as visions of my future came up. As we were about to shoot the last part, I bursted out into laughing and the shoot naturally came to a closure.
Feel and watch my transformation by scrolling through the gallery below.
Photographed by Christina Emilie.